all's over.
The Next Time Our Eyes Met.
Would Be The Last Breath I Take On Earth.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Extra-Fortified Traumatized.
No anger, no disappointment, no anguish. Just plain shock.
Maybe the fact came to me too late and landed upon me so heavily that i felt nothing but shock.
After i regained my composure, then i realize that i made a grave mistake.
I did not take any actions.
Then all the feelings started to flood in like a hurricane-brought tsunami.
It was a total knock-out for me.
If only i was one step faster, maybe, maybe.
Now as i see it, i couldn't take it and had to run away from it because it can tear apart my heart by just seeing or hearing it.
I cannot find words to describe how fucked up i am feeling now.
Yet no one but me is to be blamed for it.
My heart has sunk to the depths of my mind.
I'm so screwed now.
Let's give up for all.
Damnation multi-folded.
No anger, no disappointment, no anguish. Just plain shock.
Maybe the fact came to me too late and landed upon me so heavily that i felt nothing but shock.
After i regained my composure, then i realize that i made a grave mistake.
I did not take any actions.
Then all the feelings started to flood in like a hurricane-brought tsunami.
It was a total knock-out for me.
If only i was one step faster, maybe, maybe.
Now as i see it, i couldn't take it and had to run away from it because it can tear apart my heart by just seeing or hearing it.
I cannot find words to describe how fucked up i am feeling now.
Yet no one but me is to be blamed for it.
My heart has sunk to the depths of my mind.
I'm so screwed now.
Let's give up for all.
Damnation multi-folded.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Went to our christmas gathering @ new majestic hotel the last few days. Total disappointment.
They changed our room without having the courtesy to tell us beforehand. Why?
Because another guest booked it and, while we booked it like say a few days ago when the staff says it's still available. Until the retardeds there decides that we are not guests so our room is given away to some other random people "needs it more than we do"
The answer we got when we question them can something be done about it, "erm, i'm very sorry cause the guest have already checked in so it would be inappropriate to tell them to change room." stop and ponder, oh so it is appropriate to change our room then?
Next thing is, after all the above incidents, the hotel decides to compliment us a bottle of wine. ok, so we order the staff to bring the bloody wine up at. guess how long to took for the staff to climb 3 stories?
8 full-fledged hours.
Never knew the staff went for a marathon with the wine. why? maybe it'll taste better after the run.
Another thing, the door incident. The door FUCKING BROKE ON IT'S OWN YOU MOTHERFUCKER. But how come we get to enjoy paying another $200 for the door? did they even investigate? 200 bucks ain't little you know? elton open the door and it SIMPLY fall apart. do we have to bear responsibility for it? It's just like if your mother died during giving birth is it your fault? damn it.
200 bucks for a piece of wood that fall off from the door. Good job well done, New Majestic. ended up our cost multiplied by 1.6x.
What a GOOD way to start our christmas.
Damnation.
They changed our room without having the courtesy to tell us beforehand. Why?
Because another guest booked it and, while we booked it like say a few days ago when the staff says it's still available. Until the retardeds there decides that we are not guests so our room is given away to some other random people "needs it more than we do"
The answer we got when we question them can something be done about it, "erm, i'm very sorry cause the guest have already checked in so it would be inappropriate to tell them to change room." stop and ponder, oh so it is appropriate to change our room then?
Next thing is, after all the above incidents, the hotel decides to compliment us a bottle of wine. ok, so we order the staff to bring the bloody wine up at. guess how long to took for the staff to climb 3 stories?
8 full-fledged hours.
Never knew the staff went for a marathon with the wine. why? maybe it'll taste better after the run.
Another thing, the door incident. The door FUCKING BROKE ON IT'S OWN YOU MOTHERFUCKER. But how come we get to enjoy paying another $200 for the door? did they even investigate? 200 bucks ain't little you know? elton open the door and it SIMPLY fall apart. do we have to bear responsibility for it? It's just like if your mother died during giving birth is it your fault? damn it.
200 bucks for a piece of wood that fall off from the door. Good job well done, New Majestic. ended up our cost multiplied by 1.6x.
What a GOOD way to start our christmas.
Damnation.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Vexation. Someone is bothering me deep down but i've got freaking no idea who or why?
I just want to scream and shout and try my best to burst my freaking throat at a beach.
Something is so cooped up within me but i never seem to figure what the fuck it is.
Someone save me please.
I want to murder my soul.
By the way, this is my 200th post. Grats. Of which nearly 80% of the post are of the most negative messages brought to the public by myself. What have gotten into me? Someone say i used to be that jovial and kind and lovely. Now, pessimistic, cruel, solidarity. Who's the someone?
Me. Myself.
Now i enjoy being alone. whereas i used to feel uncomfortable without someone around. a friend or family or some whatever people.
Now i feel so relaxed and refreshing whenever there's no one to bother me. I put on an act whenever i'm with anyone. i laugh and cry and go crazy with them, but i don't really feel accomplished or anything. i felt nothing. I think i'm my soul is DEAD.
Well i guessed something screwed me up today. That's why all the direct-from-the-heart confession about my what i felt till today the day my physical being is the only thing alive in me.
Damnation mutli-folded.
I just want to scream and shout and try my best to burst my freaking throat at a beach.
Something is so cooped up within me but i never seem to figure what the fuck it is.
Someone save me please.
I want to murder my soul.
By the way, this is my 200th post. Grats. Of which nearly 80% of the post are of the most negative messages brought to the public by myself. What have gotten into me? Someone say i used to be that jovial and kind and lovely. Now, pessimistic, cruel, solidarity. Who's the someone?
Me. Myself.
Now i enjoy being alone. whereas i used to feel uncomfortable without someone around. a friend or family or some whatever people.
Now i feel so relaxed and refreshing whenever there's no one to bother me. I put on an act whenever i'm with anyone. i laugh and cry and go crazy with them, but i don't really feel accomplished or anything. i felt nothing. I think i'm my soul is DEAD.
Well i guessed something screwed me up today. That's why all the direct-from-the-heart confession about my what i felt till today the day my physical being is the only thing alive in me.
Damnation mutli-folded.
this is lame.
24th - 25th Party with classmates at New Meridian hotel if I'm not wrong.
25th - 25th Having a party with some overseas friends who have came down personally to Singapore, thanks for that!
28th - 30th Supposed to go to Jeann's chalet but still pending.
31th - 1st Planning to go to somewhere for countdown. Most properly alone. And pending as well. All invitations all open. If you get what i meant.
busy holidays. yet none of them are academically beneficial. the best i could figure out from all this activities is emotional achievement and strengthen friends bonding.
what nonsense am i sprouting about. if only you could get what i meant.
Being Alone suddenly feels so good.
Damnation.
24th - 25th Party with classmates at New Meridian hotel if I'm not wrong.
25th - 25th Having a party with some overseas friends who have came down personally to Singapore, thanks for that!
28th - 30th Supposed to go to Jeann's chalet but still pending.
31th - 1st Planning to go to somewhere for countdown. Most properly alone. And pending as well. All invitations all open. If you get what i meant.
busy holidays. yet none of them are academically beneficial. the best i could figure out from all this activities is emotional achievement and strengthen friends bonding.
what nonsense am i sprouting about. if only you could get what i meant.
Being Alone suddenly feels so good.
Damnation.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
One fine thing i forget to do. Some last minute christmas shopping. OMFG. Super broke. Don't even know if i can afford to go for CHALET And HOTLEL party at new-blah blah hotel. Alamak. Desperate need some funds for some prank making session.
Every now is about money, where the saying goes, " no money no talk ".
Next thing is to find a decent job. Best if it is the midnight shift type so that i can work on weekdays. Damned.
Damnation.
Every now is about money, where the saying goes, " no money no talk ".
Next thing is to find a decent job. Best if it is the midnight shift type so that i can work on weekdays. Damned.
Damnation.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Facebook is retarded. So many things happened and i felt so lazy to even recount what the hell happened. Something like going for seoul garden to celebrate ash's birhtday. Then went to Weichen house for some X-box L4D2 and Band Hero.
And while at home my mum and sis are pressurizing me to get a job. I am SO pissed off.
Anyway, chalet and christmas party coming up soon. My Brain is so full of non-humane idealogy. Something dirty is up in my sleeve. Careful people.
Damnation.
And while at home my mum and sis are pressurizing me to get a job. I am SO pissed off.
Anyway, chalet and christmas party coming up soon. My Brain is so full of non-humane idealogy. Something dirty is up in my sleeve. Careful people.
Damnation.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Crap Crap and more Crap.
Seriously this is so crappy that i cannot even have a meal properly.
Simply wasting time away at home. Later still gotta go for ash birthday celebration @seoul garden. Damn, I'm so freaking full now.
Lots of random events going on here and there. Will update here asap. AFTER I'm done with those events.
Damnation.
Seriously this is so crappy that i cannot even have a meal properly.
Simply wasting time away at home. Later still gotta go for ash birthday celebration @seoul garden. Damn, I'm so freaking full now.
Lots of random events going on here and there. Will update here asap. AFTER I'm done with those events.
Damnation.
Friday, December 11, 2009
MST over. First results known. As Expected. Reap what you sow.
Seriously, who in the world still reap what they sow?
I don't give a damn actually. SO say whatever you like and I'll just treat you like some species from some dog country. You'll know what i meant.
If i ever care how people think of me, i would've gone sucidal a few years back. You fuck face.
That's not you should be doing things. 'Oh choon han do this please; oh choon han do that please!;oh choon han! people's looking!'
Damn. How long are you people going to stay hypocritical? Won't your face develop pimples if you hid behind that mask for too long? won't be breathing difficult?
Come on, cut me some slack. I'm over and done with all these.
Damnation
Monday, December 07, 2009
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