Extra-Fortified Traumatized.
No anger, no disappointment, no anguish. Just plain shock.
Maybe the fact came to me too late and landed upon me so heavily that i felt nothing but shock.
After i regained my composure, then i realize that i made a grave mistake.
I did not take any actions.
Then all the feelings started to flood in like a hurricane-brought tsunami.
It was a total knock-out for me.
If only i was one step faster, maybe, maybe.
Now as i see it, i couldn't take it and had to run away from it because it can tear apart my heart by just seeing or hearing it.
I cannot find words to describe how fucked up i am feeling now.
Yet no one but me is to be blamed for it.
My heart has sunk to the depths of my mind.
I'm so screwed now.
Let's give up for all.





Damnation multi-folded.