Vexation. Someone is bothering me deep down but i've got freaking no idea who or why?
I just want to scream and shout and try my best to burst my freaking throat at a beach.
Something is so cooped up within me but i never seem to figure what the fuck it is.
Someone save me please.


I want to murder my soul.

By the way, this is my 200th post. Grats. Of which nearly 80% of the post are of the most negative messages brought to the public by myself. What have gotten into me? Someone say i used to be that jovial and kind and lovely. Now, pessimistic, cruel, solidarity. Who's the someone?

Me. Myself.

Now i enjoy being alone. whereas i used to feel uncomfortable without someone around. a friend or family or some whatever people.

Now i feel so relaxed and refreshing whenever there's no one to bother me. I put on an act whenever i'm with anyone. i laugh and cry and go crazy with them, but i don't really feel accomplished or anything. i felt nothing. I think i'm my soul is DEAD.

Well i guessed something screwed me up today. That's why all the direct-from-the-heart confession about my what i felt till today the day my physical being is the only thing alive in me.



Damnation mutli-folded.