After 13 months of delusional wishing that she could be mine,

all's over.

The Next Time Our Eyes Met.

Would Be The Last Breath I Take On Earth.

失恋的感觉真不爽

Extra-Fortified Traumatized.
No anger, no disappointment, no anguish. Just plain shock.
Maybe the fact came to me too late and landed upon me so heavily that i felt nothing but shock.
After i regained my composure, then i realize that i made a grave mistake.
I did not take any actions.
Then all the feelings started to flood in like a hurricane-brought tsunami.
It was a total knock-out for me.
If only i was one step faster, maybe, maybe.
Now as i see it, i couldn't take it and had to run away from it because it can tear apart my heart by just seeing or hearing it.
I cannot find words to describe how fucked up i am feeling now.
Yet no one but me is to be blamed for it.
My heart has sunk to the depths of my mind.
I'm so screwed now.
Let's give up for all.





Damnation multi-folded.

Went to our christmas gathering @ new majestic hotel the last few days. Total disappointment.
They changed our room without having the courtesy to tell us beforehand. Why?
Because another guest booked it and, while we booked it like say a few days ago when the staff says it's still available. Until the retardeds there decides that we are not guests so our room is given away to some other random people "needs it more than we do"
The answer we got when we question them can something be done about it, "erm, i'm very sorry cause the guest have already checked in so it would be inappropriate to tell them to change room." stop and ponder, oh so it is appropriate to change our room then?
Next thing is, after all the above incidents, the hotel decides to compliment us a bottle of wine. ok, so we order the staff to bring the bloody wine up at. guess how long to took for the staff to climb 3 stories?
8 full-fledged hours.
Never knew the staff went for a marathon with the wine. why? maybe it'll taste better after the run.
Another thing, the door incident. The door FUCKING BROKE ON IT'S OWN YOU MOTHERFUCKER. But how come we get to enjoy paying another $200 for the door? did they even investigate? 200 bucks ain't little you know? elton open the door and it SIMPLY fall apart. do we have to bear responsibility for it? It's just like if your mother died during giving birth is it your fault? damn it.
200 bucks for a piece of wood that fall off from the door. Good job well done, New Majestic. ended up our cost multiplied by 1.6x.
What a GOOD way to start our christmas.






Damnation.

Vexation. Someone is bothering me deep down but i've got freaking no idea who or why?
I just want to scream and shout and try my best to burst my freaking throat at a beach.
Something is so cooped up within me but i never seem to figure what the fuck it is.
Someone save me please.


I want to murder my soul.

By the way, this is my 200th post. Grats. Of which nearly 80% of the post are of the most negative messages brought to the public by myself. What have gotten into me? Someone say i used to be that jovial and kind and lovely. Now, pessimistic, cruel, solidarity. Who's the someone?

Me. Myself.

Now i enjoy being alone. whereas i used to feel uncomfortable without someone around. a friend or family or some whatever people.

Now i feel so relaxed and refreshing whenever there's no one to bother me. I put on an act whenever i'm with anyone. i laugh and cry and go crazy with them, but i don't really feel accomplished or anything. i felt nothing. I think i'm my soul is DEAD.

Well i guessed something screwed me up today. That's why all the direct-from-the-heart confession about my what i felt till today the day my physical being is the only thing alive in me.



Damnation mutli-folded.

this is lame.
24th - 25th Party with classmates at New Meridian hotel if I'm not wrong.
25th - 25th Having a party with some overseas friends who have came down personally to Singapore, thanks for that!
28th - 30th Supposed to go to Jeann's chalet but still pending.
31th - 1st Planning to go to somewhere for countdown. Most properly alone. And pending as well. All invitations all open. If you get what i meant.

busy holidays. yet none of them are academically beneficial. the best i could figure out from all this activities is emotional achievement and strengthen friends bonding.
what nonsense am i sprouting about. if only you could get what i meant.



Being Alone suddenly feels so good.




Damnation.

One fine thing i forget to do. Some last minute christmas shopping. OMFG. Super broke. Don't even know if i can afford to go for CHALET And HOTLEL party at new-blah blah hotel. Alamak. Desperate need some funds for some prank making session.
Every now is about money, where the saying goes, " no money no talk ".
Next thing is to find a decent job. Best if it is the midnight shift type so that i can work on weekdays. Damned.



Damnation.

Facebook is retarded. So many things happened and i felt so lazy to even recount what the hell happened. Something like going for seoul garden to celebrate ash's birhtday. Then went to Weichen house for some X-box L4D2 and Band Hero.
And while at home my mum and sis are pressurizing me to get a job. I am SO pissed off.
Anyway, chalet and christmas party coming up soon. My Brain is so full of non-humane idealogy. Something dirty is up in my sleeve. Careful people.



Damnation.

Crap Crap and more Crap.
Seriously this is so crappy that i cannot even have a meal properly.
Simply wasting time away at home. Later still gotta go for ash birthday celebration @seoul garden. Damn, I'm so freaking full now.
Lots of random events going on here and there. Will update here asap. AFTER I'm done with those events.



Damnation.

MST over. First results known. As Expected. Reap what you sow.

Seriously, who in the world still reap what they sow?

I don't give a damn actually. SO say whatever you like and I'll just treat you like some species from some dog country. You'll know what i meant.

If i ever care how people think of me, i would've gone sucidal a few years back. You fuck face.

That's not you should be doing things. 'Oh choon han do this please; oh choon han do that please!;oh choon han! people's looking!'

Damn. How long are you people going to stay hypocritical? Won't your face develop pimples if you hid behind that mask for too long? won't be breathing difficult?

Come on, cut me some slack. I'm over and done with all these.

Damnation

Been to wedding lately. Last Sunday. The Newly-Wed.

Went for Homecoming that Saturday. Total disappointment. But we can't blame them. Why?

Cause we just can't.

Damnation

FACEBOOK is lagging again!!!

Damnation

So busy. Don't have time for even walking around doing nothing. (my favorite past time)

Firstly is MOB

Next is SITEX.

Next is IDEAS.

Next is GEMS Test.

Lastly is Graduation Ceremony.

Best thing about it was 2 CCA points and the chance to see Ms. June dancing.

One word blogging sounds kinda cool. Lets use one word to blog.

SCREWED.

Damnation.

Classical moment of playing pranks on people. Love it to the max. Since stone age that I've been playing pranks on people. Doing it again makes me felt so nostalgic.

Lol. Madly chionging castle age on facebook now. come join me if you are playing as well. But one sad thing is that facebook keep lagging, especially during the night time around 8 to 10 plus. this is crazy man. i can even disconnect from facebook totally. Lol.

Lots of things to be done next week. Yet none of which is done. Procrastination. I good at it.

Damnation.

i hate it when the internet starts to lag every thing down. especially during peak hours when lots of people online. facebook blogger garena google chrome safari firefox ie. all lags.

Damnation.

This is crap man. Been waking up so early these few days and going to breakfast with mum and dad. Lol. Totally total. Yesterday was Jeannie's birthday.

Happy Birthday to ya! got it? Erm anyways the present will be on the way soon. just wait.

Damnation.

Lol. Watched 2012. Not Bad.....All Died though. How brittle life is. And humorous.

Looking for jobs so can support myself. And buy birthday gifts for don't know how many people.

I wonder why fate makes people birthday on the same day.

Got a lot of things swirling in my mind so badly that it hurts.

Work done, work waiting to be done, work to be done NOW, how to get myself out of this mess, so on and so forth.

Damnation.

Bored during econs lecture and so decide to express the artistic side of wello. Decorated the whole table with animals and label it dbf 05 zoo. full of animals. ccute and classic. All thanks to wello (not choon Han hor)

Damnisified.

When will i ever get a chance to express my own opinion? It's like i say things my way and people get angry over it. I wonder what's wrong with it?

I want to do things i think i will be doing and NOT do things the way people think i should be doing.

Don't get it? You don't have to.

Lol. Had a great day today. Went for waves 14 circus. Not bad.

Once again gotta Congrats Stella and Jeannie and Yan Ping for the putting up the marvelous performance. SDZ seems so fun! Wanted to join but i guess i don't have the stuff in me for dance.

Lol. Looking at those days really much more interesting than now. School stuff, relationships problems, peer complications, and much more yet to be thought of.

Simply retarded. I saw idiotic stuff on the newspaper everyday. And freaking everyone encourages the reading of newspaper. But whats the point of learning retarded issues such as which model wears Nu-Bra for pageant contests?

The world is so Damnnationified.

Flu sucks. I hate flu. Everyday flu is bad omen.

My DotA sucks ok i know it, you don't have to mention it over and over again. So STFU.

Went to school at 8? OMFG For what? That Jeann lor. Make me wake up so early so that she can use my laptop for SPSS. Sometimes it's not the machine's problem, instead is the owner's problem that make that things go haywire.

Next is the SPSS. What a day. Finally it's over. Goddamn it. Pathetic program invented by SP losers.

Damnations.

Lol. What the hell is happening to blogger? Lagging and simply wasting my time.
Today's first GEMS lesson. And OH MY FUCKING HELL. The lecturer sucks, the classroom sucks and lastly, that GEMS seems to appeal to quite a number of nerds which I really required none of. Thought go CLS can sien zabo. But absolutely to my fucking disappointment, all the decent ones walked PAST my class into another class. SAI LA!. Felt like spamming tons of vulgarities here. But due to my CHANGE OVER A NEW LEAF CAMPAIGN, i have to restrain myself. What trouble.
Simply sitting in the GEMS class puts me to sleep. No introduction no nothing. First thing is give us her phone number ( like i even need it). Next she tries to make some jokes. Come on la, from any angles she looks just like 60+, and her tries are simply pathetic. Go get yourself a wheelchair please. Next jump straight into topic introduction. I was like :" F*** la, you rather intro some dead piece of shit then intro the living ones in the classroom.
Next is the content of the GEMS class. Seriously, i felt like i was in a go-green club rather than GENES learning. I was expecting translation or transcription and mutating genes and cancer and cool stuff like that. My god. i can see myself having more GEMS in year 3 liao.



Damnation.

What the hell. Busy doing work right now.

No one has an instantaneous reply speed.

But seriously need not take like 20 mins to reply?

What a Jerk. People nowadays simply have nothing better to do. Saw one incident on the newspaper. Seriously it's retarded. "Someone Dies from Lipo...... and family decides to sue the doctor. " I mean What the FUCK. If you are going to do that kind of shit, please be prepared to die. In the medical world nothing is 100% for god's sake, if it failed and you sue whoever is doing the surgery for that dead ass, in no time there'll be no more doctors left.

Another irritating matter is that does it affect her when i do things that i like? After several rounds of thorough thinking, i think that seriously i don't affect her one bit. So why does she likes to irritate me so much? What The Fuck Again.

Damn the people who believed. If He is real, He will find a cure to AIDS. It's just a story and you treat Him like your second husband. find one day i'll put Snow White on the cross and write a story about it and the next day churches of Snow White will start to pop up around the world.

Damnation

Having fun with zbrush now. Not that difficult as what june said. but on the contrary, its quite interesting.

Ding Dong. Lost my touch in DotA. too much cabal do me no good. Working now. Cannot go on time to ash's STEAMboat party. Being so lifeless these few months and finally someone decide to call me up for some random steamboat session. How cool.

Decide to work hard when school starts. And to willie: "Working hard doesn't mean you have to be a mugger. Getting a balanced life by studying and playing hard is working hard. Muggers are the failures and shame of the students' race. Remember this well."

Next set down my aim. I've to get a GPA of .................... 4.1 astonishingly. Must get, will get and i think i can. Even my mum says that actually i have a high IQ (which i don't really trust in). So i can get if i put in my best effort.

Next get more friends who are quite ready to go crazy with me.

Finally get a perfect girlfriend for the year ending 2009.

Damnation

Chiong-ing CABAL, CHIONG ARH!!

Lol. Life's so bored that 'I'm pretty fucked up. Someone just out there to bicker with me. what the Fuck.

People lived so that there could die. So what's the point of working so hard for yourself and neglecting the enjoyment, family and friends around you? After all, you'll just die in the end when you reached your last step of your life.

Hence, enjoy life like you never have a tomorrow.

Life's so boring. I'm so bored.

People will say" why don't you find something to do instead of sitting here and screaming you're bored?"

I will say" fuck you. if i have something to do, i won't be shrieking i'm bored, won't i?"

Everyday wake up and think of nothing. How life's?

Damnation.

Damn sad and emosified. I really studied. I work so hard and still get this shit stuff. Man, what happened anyway. I don't want to go to school no more. I guess I'm better in science, not cut out to be a businessman. But alas, only mid year. As long as I try harder next time maybe my grades will get better.



Don't condemn a person cause he made a grave mistake. Learn from Jesus himself. He didn't revived shouting " Where's the mother******* that stick me onto the cross? I'll kick his bloody ass!"
If someone around you made a mistake, understand him or her, forgive them. Then you kick their ass.

Craps. Supposed to go for interviews but the people at the other side didn't really call me. Instead stayed at home on a peaceful friday and dota with eric and friend. Man, life's hard. Given the economy is reviving they should recruit more part-timers than now. I hate this kind of life where I could't have a aim.

Again my thinking mood kicked in again this afternoon. Was wondering why is it that reality can't be that good of a virtual one? Craps. Guessed this is fate. But people always say fate is in your hands. Whom do I trust? I guess it's up to me again. Like the chinese saying "see people see intelligence"(direct translation though). If I have the power to change my life. How cool could that be. Be it the ability to manipulate my seconds into the way I want it to be or created a whole new life of my own choice. Cool~.

Walked ION yesterday on my own.

Damnation.

That place is filled with all the world's most branded items. Watches, Designer's shops, Jewelry and more.

I walked into one market place - Three Sixty at the upper most level of the complex and see what I found.

A SGD$ 6, 288 Scotch Whiskey. Limited edition and only 100 bottles available in the world, as claimed by the bottle itself.

Everything' overpriced and the atmosphere is over-flooded by branding trying to out-brand each other.

Slouching at home with simply nothing to do. My work schedule's not out yet. Crapping about life here.

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ALL THE WEBPAGES.

{FACEBOOK; BLOGGER}

CRAPS.

I trust no one.

You can choose not to believe in me. But I'll always choose to believe myself.

Man. True Friends don't die.

Sometimes, once in a few weeks, I would stop by some pathway and think deep. Some say this is self-reflection, but I think it's a moment of serious and deep down thinking. I would think about what I have did over the past few days and think whether should I ddo it or not.

Other times, I would simply have nothing to think about and everything just went blank. That's when I don't seem to care for anything. And I realised one serious issue.

True anxiety comes only when you have nothing to think of.

Cause you can't seem to find anything to worry about and that's the part where it worries me and it's the part where it struck me hard and cold.

Am I too chilled?

i put my resume on the net and guess what. Some affiliate company of AIA decides to provide me a job opprotunity. i wonder why.

Bored. Holidays. Loathe. Them.
Got. GEMS. What. The. Fuck.
Finding. Work. To. Waste. Time.
A. Few. Events. To. Waste. Myself.

Curious. Even Trains can have traffic jam. Waiting at Jurong Station today, 4 trains can't be board pass by consecutively. The one that could be board stuck at the station for what, 10 mins? then many people pathetically waited in the train while those clever ones like me looking at them from the outside for a good 10 mins. Some decided that they've waited enough so they took off from the train and walk out scolding vulgarities. Sigh, typical Singaporeans, no patience at all. What's most interesting is that some tried to go back the moment the train close the door. Are they stupid? Then after which another 3 trains cannot be board pass by consecutively again. Finally i got onto the next train but, in the middle of the trip to clememti, we stopped again. Waiting for the next train to go in front of us into the depot. Funny, traffic jam on the tracks. Where else could it happen? Traffic jam in the sky?

Patience's a virtue, guys.

Just wait man. I'm going to come up with a new story regarding econs, may be i could even produce a manga on it.

How does it feel like to be dead? Is it in pain or is it just painless and numb?
I wonder.

One fine Tuesday morning, the king of the Choon Han Kingdom had a crazy idea.
He told his subordinates," Hey Why not we launch an invasion on our neighbor, the Fundamentals of Marketing Empire? Sounds cool huh?".
Not daring to defy him, the king's subordinates, Commander Fingers and Vice-king Brain Cells, have to agree that it's a great idea.
10 minutes later, all is ready for the great invasion. Leading the troops is Commander Fingers. He started to attack the empire of the unlucky one. But he was shocked to see that FOM empire was already in defense mode.
The King of FOM says " You imbecile, don't belittle our marketing intellingence gathering!'"
What even astonishing was that the FOM troops was laid out in an Product Expansion Grid Formation! In the lead was the famous 4Ps Commanders of FOM- Chief Commander Product, Vice Commander Price, Elites Commander Place and Royal Guards Commander Promotion.
Commander Fingers, being an amatuer, cannot withstand the 4Ps commander, henceforth he was taken down easily by the Lemon Attacks of the 4Ps.
The King of Choon Han saw that and quickly ordered the Elite squad, led by Vice-king Brain Cells, to counter the formation. Being the elite, Brain Cells took them out easily. But the war's not over yet.
FOM also sent out their elites, the SWOT team and the DENTPC team.
It's a two on one battle now. After a thorough 3 hour long stand-off, Brain Cells finally managed to annihilate the two elites of FOM empire. But as the two enemy elite squads are also not some funfair, Brain Cells suffered heavy losses too.
Having suffered a drastic lost, the FOM King decided to surrender to reduce their casualties. Thus the offensive country won the war and gained a new kingdom.

Changed my mind. Decided to study after all. Now furiously mugging for FOM. First time in years since i felt the real feel of STUDYING. Craploads of bullshit. But still i don't feel anxious like all the rest of the people. No stress No stress.

Comments on "Where got ghost?" by jack neo.
1. A futile effort to try to make the show humorous.
2. No innovation. Since light years ago, his movie haven't changed in anything, style or content.
3. An obvious desperate attempt to be creative by linking three unlinkable stories into one movie.
4. Finally, a waste of effort and time and cash to watch it.


Comments on G.I. Joe
1. Hot and sexy babes appear right at the start of the show to capture attention. Good try.
2. The graphics is good. Although needs improvement.
3. Story is interesting and innovative. Also knows how to arouse curiosity at the ending.
4. Finally, worth the price and time. May be catching the sequel.

If the sky throw down a bunch of hard cold cash at you, would you accept it?
For me, i would....throw the cash up back into his face and shout:" I don't need your fucking sympathy!"

Furious, yet i'm so powerless against her.

bloody sunday II. boring like mad.
tomorrow is a monday. will the more boring.
to be damned for life or to live for the damned?

random.

test coming up and i ain't got no idea what the hell am i doing now.

some old frag told us in econs about forward moduling.

not like we didn't know.

not like we ain't prepare to forward. old faggot.

she is going to teach us econs next year.

to be humbel and yet, he never manage to hide the proudness under the hood.

Finaly, everything ended. with a nice note.

okok. thought about it so much that i guess today i learnt from ec that if i don't start working hard now, there will never be another chance for me to do so. and same goes for asking the sacred question. too alone nowadays no one to confide myself in. i am 自闭. i wonder so. someone save me from the hell that i plunged myself into.

P.S

After tomorrow, all's well end well.

ok ok. Some blokes they are. What's with this "940, 940" thing. don't they spare a thought for the lady? tactless young fools. linked everything i said to joycelyn. What's with their brains? so busy thinking something to link me and her? I rather spent the extra brain cells doing something more constructive.

Such child-like acts from ones who were the same class.

Humans have a limit for tolerance, people.

The ever-laughing me get pissed off sometimes.

So don't overdo it or i will overkill the person.

hah. finally can post. the stupid bugs of blogger. should have recommend them to fix it. been through so much this several days. lots of stuff happened and lots of stuff ended.

Felt so uncomfortable recently.

Just like the feeling a few years back.

Right before something bad happen.

Regrettted that i didn't manage to prevent it from happening.

But this time i know it.

Hence i sincerely wished everyone to be careful.

I cannot be there for everyone.

How i wish she's still with us right now.
Surrounded by us.

Forget Neverland.

today have a funny yet damn cool event. i was on the train at jurong east station. i board the train and the train is still godforsaken packed. i stood in the middle of the cabin when that event took place. a woman, a striking pretty one, wearing a blue dress, did something to me.

she kept brushing her breast against like nothing happened. although it feels good, but still being gentleman, i tried to siam. but between me and the auntie in front is only 5 cm and behind me is 0cm, basically contact. until clementi i manage to freed myself from it. cool huh? not everyday you get a pretty to brush her breast against your back, isn't it?

The zigzagged line of annoynomous feelings.

man man. currnetly found a new addictive game from willie.pretty fun and tactical.call plants vs zombies.damn cute. now then discovered that my group haven't even started ec project yet.and how funny if our group forward ec.nowadays maplesiao.

Damn, you are not as good as people thought you are.

You are BETTER.

Flunk ITAB.SEcond Half of the paper was not done AT ALL.marvelously wonderful. Had to get better grade in all th rest of the paper to pull my gpa up. like tomorrow stats should be easy ba. all the formula remembering and the secondary school work. hope it works well tomorow.

forget to add some chat box in my own blog. but alas no one visits my blog anyway.so don't really bothers me.if you've got somethng urgent to tell me please sms instead.

i must be obsessed. i'm seeing megan fox image everywhere.

My my. Watch transformers2 and was quite amaze by the robots. they are getting more and more humane. not going to spoil the movie by spilling the beans here. well i put this as my desktop background. cool huh?

Flames to dust; Lovers to friends; Why do all good things come to end?

damn song i am. finally finished the manga version of one piece! reason why i'm not active nowadays. now i'm back and loads of stuff to be done and done with.

some random posting.

like that day on thursday, we were talking about people who join canoeing and dragon boat. and lydia was like:" they are so muscular and fit lor! Wa DELICIOUS!" then she gave the hysterical smile.me and weiqin was like *jaw drop*.  wen jie, you should know better that your baby likes what type of guys liao.

Went to outing with the lefthanders cliqué. though i skipped school. missed out on ca2 briefing.but no worries though. went to weiqin school to meet. but due to lydia and me road idiotness, we ended up at twelve stops away from his school. actually we saw the sign that his school is there but we thought it was at the other side. then at the twelveth stop, we decide to turn back cause the driver divulged that we missed njc. so we took the bus on the other side of the road. went back his school after much difficulty. wait for him and decide to go to holland village. we were walking aimlessly while i busied myself by looking for a toilet. found it at food junction. continued to walk aimlessly until we decide that we're hungry so we camped at subway holland village. camwhore for a bit at the outlet itself. let the pictures do the talking. then we bused to orchard after eating. damn full.we decide to go to tanglin mall where lydia works. i tried to ask for job but they tell me to call another number instead. then we went to st regis. damn cool. the people there are just simple plain rich. ferrari are like abundant there. next we walk to the forum where me and lydia bought mcflurry. there were plenty of cool shopes down there. one must-go is blackjack. it is damn cool. then we went to wisma atria. walk around the shops for a bit when szeling pop out. she was waiting for her sister's performance at 9.00 while the time we met her was 5+. then we continue walking to taka for a bit. then was like looking for clothes for weiqin and myself. lydia obviously obsessed with topshop. keep telling us to go to topmen and buy clothes. after which we bought nothing and trained home. while on the train we were like dgging lydia's photo album. so many photos that is was freaking tired by the time we finished it. then went to buy some drinks and departed from causeway. great day with them.

Disaterrific Valentino.

chionging one piece anime recently and also due to the mountainous load of homework to be done. got no time to blog.though all these are excuses.Whatever ba.

Disaterrific Valentino.

plenty of stuff to talk about but recently all forget what to say.

like the issue on eric and rx.

and i went for rugby training on tuesday night and thursday. damn.it was hurtful i must say.cause i keep diving onto the ground. casue of MALCOM!!!i will own you oneday. then i literally forget what i did for these few days.

tomorrow still got fom project to do at i don't the place.still must look for jobs if not cashless.saded.

i guess that's all i could remember.

Damn i'm so freaking tired de yet i've got plenty of shit to blurt. so tomorrow will update asap.

Disaterrific Valentino.

damn boring day at home doing practically nothing.

then go basketball with cousins and then got a hole punched right through my foot. though i don't know who the hell did it but it seriously hurts. injured foot and two days later still got selection! how? will never get selected with a hole in the foot.

came back decide to dota with weichen and then slack and do poa and i don't know a single bit of the balance thing. the rest still simple but the balancing accounts i have got no clue at all.

damn must revise liao.

Disaterrific Valentino.

today come to school with jeann and then report for lesson which is like stats tutorial. then the tutor damn saded. tio suan by so many of us and he don't know what the hell happen at all. especially rui xiang. all sorta rubbish also ask. damn funny. after which got break. psp~~~. then econs lecture, alex. then went to weichen house to kill time for touch rugby session. damn fun. first thing is FUN drill which is run round the stadium twice and do warm ups. then is the passing training call pop pass. i guess i spelled correctly huh? then come to training match which is all "that side!" and  "this side!" shouting across. then come the fun part where we gotta remain in oushup position while one of our teammates will do something idiotic across the field and come back untll all done then can come up. damn tired lor.three rounds somemore. finally is the damn fun part which is "the last man standing". the catchers were suppose to stand in the middle and we the extra will run past them trying not to be bing down by them. aand is REALLY BRING DOWN by brute force. if not they call you pussy. damn fun we even had to gang one biggy to bring him down. after the game was dismissal with attendance taking. had subway for dinner and went home to find teck hwee and yan ping at station waiting for sihao. board train and saw elaine and ash and two new friends which i only remember the girl name call caroline if im not wrong. went back to woodlands and then wait teckhwee had his long john while i psp-ed. but before that he say alot of rubbish to me which i guess will come in handy one day. then walked home and tada doing stats and then trying to finish this post. End~

Disaterrific.

was doing nothing from the moment i woke up.

was trying my best to look for jobs to do so i could survive the month. if not i'll be killing myself on starvation.

was looking at some idiot quiz that's goodamn long. just by looking at it my eyes are tired, i wonder how she finish typing it.

Damnation.

Damnation.

Had a class bbq yesterday at weichen's house. Very tedious as lots of things to be done.

for example grocery shopping. like one whole bunch of guys shopping for dinner at fairprice clementi. Had a great time trying to set up the charcoal fire. and then after like two hours i finally got the fire starting. SAY THANKS PEOPLE!!. then we starting cooking this and that. Aaron was so hungry he started eating cold hotdogs and crabsticks. elton and ruixiang join uis around 8.45, while eric came at 9++.junkang came at 10++. after everything we were like camwhore here and there. and GIRLS! you people literally flooded my camera with photos of you people! mymy. then one family who had nothing else better to do, decides to throw some of H2O for us. guess they know we need water. threw from 6 or 7 storeys. lucky my head was chilled. if not today's headline not selamat. is condo burnt down with whole family dead. well we never disturb them they have no f***ing reason to do that. forget about it. then the girls and some guys wanna go home so we send them to the station.had plenty of fun on the way. like turning around and scare the girls into nonsense. then we had this 'dark night' thing and were laughing our ass out. then while everyone took train. joyce the dumb took bus. so we were like irritaing at the bus stop until the bus arrive. we even salute to her on the bus. funny thing. after which we were like going to cross the road and go underneath dove station just for fun.in the middle of the road one motorist increase his speed at us and pointed his only finger towards us.we were like the whole group pointed back at him. fun.

then went back to weichen house on the way talking about the green man flashing things and laugh our asss out again. at weichen hosue everyone took turns to shower while we watch willie played balckshot. then we had eric to 1v3 us. and he lose until can not.though he was still very pro. then we played a game of public then we watched shoot 'em up. funny show. everything CG de. then we went back to dota while elton was busy sleeping and willie still blackshooting and siang pin don't know do what. 7 plus then we all went back. and forget about the unclear charcoal. and i left my camera at weichen house. came home do  nothing and then went to sleep.

that's it simple and short.

freaking unhappy today. got some commmunications with my family members and damn them.

am i talking alien langauge or what?living in another world?

Woke up at around 1 today. freaking tired. i must say. some more no one in the house. damn boring liao. then no one online. want to go out also no one to jio. so temporary aim: to find a girlfrined so that when nothing to do can jio her out for dates. 

next is school work. i got no idea what the hell i am studying about. cause everything seems more realistic comepare to secondary studies like those nonsense rubbish such as triple science. but i must say things seems easy though not understandable. ok i don't know what i am talking about.

boring's the word.

Horrifying Freaks.

Today's labour day. plentiful of babies to be born. gotta celebrate labour's day. by slacking at home and trying my best to do nothing. recently having difficult to remember things. like my lessons and lectures. the moment i left the lecture hall and tutor room i forget every thing. i wonder like that still can pass my first year or not?

Disaterrific Valentino

Was very stupid today. too tired then sleep on train. miss woodlands and ended up in yishun. waste of time to go back to woodlands again. Class now planning on a party at weichen house. don't know what time. and we still haven't get parent's permission. maybe got sleepover either this friday or next. up to them to decide man. very tired. 

Yups went to the ceremony for being a singaporean. Well was at chong bang cc and quite a sum of people are there. 

Went on stage and shake hands with ellen lee i guess. Some MP and grassroot member. But i got hell of a no idea who she is. Very nice picture up there.

I am freaking tired today from all the school and walking and finally the HEAT. It's not hot, it's just SCORCHING.

Called the transitlink hotline to question about my ezlink card. In the end what the hell they say? 'Please wait until around the first week of MAY." this was what the sexy voice on the other side of the phone said. F***. Another few days of adult fares. why? They so slow in processing my card?

Then went home to find myself doing homework? And man, homework was never fun and it never was. Bad day to end for a good morning tomorrow. 

Horrificication.

today damn tired. Had econs and ec today. Then suppose to go for tuition grant briefing but they say since i changed nationality i don't have to go. ended up staying in the library to compile the STATS homework for my class. then went home at 6.00.

Exhausted totally. My fingers simply freaked out from the typings of the homework. DBF05 man!

 

Dead and Gone.

First day of school. Had first lesson on econs. Alex lum's the lecturer. All the dbf classes gathered together for an hour or so. Then break. Went to popular to stock in all the textbooks. then still got the lecture notes to buy. Shall buy tomorrow. And ezlink card. 

Next is suppose to be project but no teachers turned up at our classrooms  so we went to library instead. And everyone was fb-ing down there. Cause we've got nothing better to do.

Then is ITAB. We went to the wrong classroom and waited for half an hour, and naively thinking our lecturer is late. And our lecturer was waiting in the correct classsroom thinking we skip class on first day of school. That's our personal tutor randy ng.

Then he released us early and i proceed to go home. Damn shcked out from baasketball yesterday. Will sleep peacefully.

Good Gracious.

Today had bad day. Really bad. don't bother mentioning so i don't really wanna mention it.

Tomorrow' school first day. Had to get my itab textbook from a senior so i saved the money of buying it. Thanks senior!

Had my first basketball match since months. Man, am i really that old? Rusted already so i'm qite suckie already.

Hope tomorrow's gonna be better.

Nonsense and rubbish.

Still trying to get my mafia family members' blog. So currently only have three. Sorry to the others if you have and i didn't knew.

Grandé

Erm was home from a day's of work. Very bad results. Learnt from sis that she's going to sponsor my textbook then relieved abit.

Today got quite a number of newbies coming to join granton@sg. But still all's older than me. But they still think i'm older. My face a bit cao lao. 

Came home showered. Than had a bankai fight with my sis. Using BROOMS. That was fun. Never knew our family so childish.

then too heated up. Got myself a can of pepsi to chill. That's it. End of my day.

Fabulous and elegant.

Was awake early in the morning trying to figure out what's in for our new class blog.

spent the whole morning editing and re-editing. decided to give up since my head was busted from all the freaking html and css scripts. Damn painful.

Going to school at 2 for buying textbooks and afterwards work again. Super boring and i'm freaking tired de. Took some pictures on the train yesterday with my class. not up yet cause i haven't received the pictures from rui xiang. but is on facebook already so go on check it out.

Dreaded and Fearsome.

Today's a non-of-our-business-yet lecture. Something about overseas trips and getting involved in all sorts of rubbish. Yesterday took some pictures at moberly and this is more or less the whole class. Except xiuzhen and siangpin and vivian not included course they not present then. Sorry to take it without you people. Most Sincere Apologies.

Also one thing to mention:

Welcome Vivian to our small family of D.B.F.0.5! Another girl of course. Now our class become quite balance. 

Collected tins today for extortions tomorrow. Damn. AMK. Somemore 7 A.M. 

Well happy extorting from amkians.

 

Wonderful.

Don't got jealous when i mention my new class: D.B.F.0.5

They...I meant WE ROCK THE WORLD.

They are such a lovely bunch of friends who do not practice anti-social acts on their first day of meeting. 

Welcome all my new classmates:

-BOYS-

Willie (the Boss a.k.a Chairman)

Wei Chen (Willie.Jr a.k.a Vice-Chiarman)

Aaron (Willie.Jr a.k.a Treasurer)

Rui Xiang 

Jun Kang 

Eric

Sean

Siang Pin

Karthik

Elton

And of course, Me

-GIRLS-

Dong Fang 

Krystal

Stella

Xiu Zhen

Rabi'atul

Vivian

Joycelyn

Yan Nong

Evelyn

Good Gracious

Aim of the week is to become a leader.

Had Honey Stars for breakfast today. so i hoped today will go well.

Next week finally orientation. Now that i realise i haven't went to anything at all. And my tuition grant issue still post a serious threat to me. Damnation. Forget about it ba.

And one thing, i am very sorry to the ones whose relationship didn't went out the happily ever after ending.

Errrrrrrrr. Went to some place today. Causeway point. Saw loads of naval base secondary people down there. wonder what are they up to. 

One thing. On april fool day. i was being pranked umpteen times by people from all walks of life. Usually i was the prankster. But....this year try to do some good by being more quiet a bit.

Enjoy everyone.

Damn sui night i have. Phone malfunctioning and hence could not go to work. What rubbish. No work=no dime. But i'll have my fun some other day ba. Today finally maybe going to town. Most probably be hereen. Or that area. But the loads of tourist acting people maybe enough to dampen the day. Anyways still looking forward to the day. 

The old me's dead and gone.

Removed

If Today was your last day, And tomorrow was too late, would you say goodbye to yesterday?

My My. Finally my blog is at post#100. I wonder why? I meant i haven't been updating lately. And i guess no one's reading anything like that. 

Was to catch confessions of a shopoholic but too bad that i got work. And one thing i found is that it's been a few months since i saw anyone from my ex-class. Cool huh.

Never been touching my bed for a long time liao. I think it grew dust. Can't imagine if i jump right into my bed. I guess it be raining dust all over. Was out yesterday night-today morning. And i forget where i went. Serious amnesia my head has. Thereotically is short-term memory loss. 

i guess i need a doctor after all. 

Someone please save me from this horrible heaven.

To spent all my mornings doing nothing is really good. At least i have something to do. Which is doing nothing. I don't feel tired no more. No like when i just started to do this. I guess-ed i got use-ed to it somehow. No like when i sleep like a few hours per week. How many people can do that?

Then i realise-ed i haven't check-ed out my timetable yet. And i heard that school's round the corner. What's more stupid is that i don't have an impression of when is the first day of school.

Full of rubbish from myself. That is.

So bored nowadays. I always meant in the morning. Lucky i watch Marley and me yesterday. So yesterday was better than today. But i hoped tomorrow will be better than today.

If you have no tomorrow; and have to live each moment like your last, what will you do?

Today was supposed to work but accidentally bumped into tavin and terry so had abit of basketball session with them.

Was pretty fed-up yesterday when i worked whole day and i still managed to get an egg home. I wasn't home until twelve.

tadda. End of story.

Erm, woke up this morning at 2 and pretty fed-up with the rubbish. Come to think of it, i dreaded the idea of going out with them anymore. I thought we're going to have fun. DUH. Gave me craploads of schoool, school and more school. After which is shitloads of homework, homework, and more homework that's undone. 

Today's a Saturday. My free-est time of the week. Later have an outing with friends from punggol and bedok. Good thing that these friends never mention school among themselves. Unless they're in school. For e.g Jason, Dessyeri all this people. They rock the world. I think there will be some crrazy things going today. Will update as soon as the day is over.

Been at work since 6. Then went to szeling birthday celebration. Went to swenson's aas well. Had a couple of ice-creams.

P.S 

OK. I quite had enough of all these rubbish. To those living happily in their jc lives, DON'T bother asking me out again. I'm not cut out to be able to fit into the lives you people are in anyway. And one thing, I really MEANT what i sid.

What's that?

Plain old days anytime at home. The Legend of Chun Li is out and here i am home trying my best to find time to watch. Super fan of her since i have interactions with street fighter. The 'Most Attractive Fighter' wasn't just a name after all.

Have been crawling the neighbourhood these days. i wonder why. today is szeling birthday and i sent a freak birthday wishes and i wonder if she read it.^^

wanted to go to town but just don't have the time. 

Just wish she was here to talk to or just by looking at her, I am satisfied.

Great cool morning today. Nothing better to do so stay up a bit to blog abit and breathe in the fresh morning air. Today's work eat half a dozen worth eat half a dozen worth of eggs. Tomorrow MAYBE going sp to camp briefing or MAYBE going out with people. i guess. 

BONA FIDE everyone. I seriously don't know what that means.

I hate to admit this. But from today onwards i am a freaking Singaporean. How great. 

No more Malaysian and those i-can't-read-what's-in-my-passport issue again. Cause i guess my new passport is going to be in English?

All Hail my blue ic. That poor thing got a hole punched right through it. how sad. Look at the bottom right if the ic.

Monday Rainy

What a boring at home. Woke up and tada! Forget to eat my breakfast.

Went back to sleep. Then wakey again knowing what to do. Later still must go to work. What boring life. How i wished i started school. Lately i joined a poly camp which i think i rather not go(though i paid $10 for it).

Looking forward to saturday as well. Wonder who's going?

Now i am blog-hopping and i realise no matter where i tagged i always start with the same old bullshit.'how's school?' or 'how's life?'. And i seriously wonder why those people didn't get sick of it when i am personally sick of it myself. And damn. My leg is broken from all the walking i got from working. I'm still hesitating whether to go to work since now i am freaking lazy~

Edited

Wondering if i should put some music into my blog as well. Makes everything so much noisier and distracting so i don't have to think.

Change to something that's bloody red.

looks so cool. Yesterday got a dose of mild flu. Cause me to increase my klutziness level by alot.

I heard it's holiday for people in jc. Was wondering if they've got any extra lesson. 

Then today was at home trying to find my way to work but.

Anyway i finally got my firsty sales in work after SIX days straight of 0f zero sales.

My first client was a filipino. And his tv is smaller than my head(not that my head is very big).

Will be catching COMING SOON and RACE TO THE WITCH MOUNTAIN soon.

Just finding time. I wonder how dwayne jonhson got from wrestling to movies.

P.s

Anyone want to catch those two movies also please call me too.

That voice don't have to be equipped with reasons. Its has good lungs and simply outsreamed logic itself.

What beautiful line that some idiot who had nothing better to do came up with.

I was thinking of finishing off Chin* so we Sing*pore could make do without chinese.

NO business or diplomatic ties with them.

So we could put off Chinese. Forget about it. 

I was out-of-my-mind doing some reading at home. Everything's Eventual by Stephen King.

That line above was copied from that book;from a chapter called everything's eventual.

Freaking nice book though. Fantastic short novels here and there that makes me forget how to spell BORED.

Then there's always some arse who try to break my Maglev of thoughts. E.g. my mum, sis, my boss(who smsed me randomly and call me for training) etc.

For the first time in my life i hoped i have a car crash. So I don't get distracted when i am f*cking reading.

Coming to one point is difficult but going away from another is even more difficult.

was at lot 1 today. bang bang into at least 23 different people and 564 same people.

walk around a bit and saw my friends. Mr. Banana split and Mrs donkey arse.

WEll i bet most of the people u know wouldn't know the fuck out of them. but great people as always.

come to speak of it. enrolment day. and job seeking all over again.

everything came to one start but they don't seem to end, do they?

well freak out when i had to walk in the rain.

god damn heavy rain today. at least a 20 pounds.

was trying to think if anyone miss me but halt when i remember that she never miss me.

that bloody slut.(anyone knows who the hell is that slut?i wonders)

ok that's it bye.

Today is a freaking raining day. Seems to be in a super mood.

Jobless again. But at least i know what time to report to school. Rather than waiting aimlessly for nothing.

Deli-Ravishing. School is. I think no idiot could understand me. So don't bother wasting your time trying to decipher what Choon Han the idiot got to say. You'll never get it.

Monday sucks. So do Tuesday and Wednesday. Thursday and Friday as well.

Ok the week sucks through and through. Trying to my best to inject anti-rotting medicine into myself but to know that i already an half-decay.

Bored life is Dead life.

People find something for me to do?

The moment she left my field of vision, I'm already starting to miss her.

The most agony is not when she says no; but is when she don't even say no.

It's been a long while since i listen to anyone's heart. Well well.Finally back from my coffin. For the last week, found one idiot to update my blog with nonsense. I am, again, duefully resigned from my work. Great job. Geez, 4 more days to valentine day. Girls, what you people want? Chocs? Accessories? Flowers? My time? Or what? Give an answer and i'll see if i could make it. Maybe i'll make a candlelight dinner at my house. 

Well well anyway my time on 14 Feb is booked. No point mentioning all of the above. 

And check this out, there's  great movie coming up in june. With megan fox in it.^^She's HOT~

There's more than what meets the eye.

Optimus Prime, Transformer

i'm your life now.

                                         Edward Cullen, Twilight

A sin is not when lies are told while the truth is sought after; but is when the truth is told while lies are required.

Though she could not wink as adorably, she is drop dead gorgeous~

I'll never forget the promise i made to her. Never.

Her grace and elegance made me surrender my heart.

She makes me breathless whenever i'm around her.

Erm great day to have in school.

First things first.

Random people called me to their steamboat party and mahjong party at szeling house.

At 12 a.m somemore.

Then i thought was something important so i decided not to pangseh them by appearing.

In the end we do nothing more than stripping a little bit more than a hundred prawns.

Rushed home to shower and ready for work.

Tio pangseh.

No one paka me that all off work.

Then work till 12 without even a wink.

but still not tired.

Meet the clique at 1 plus.

went to school.

Listen to Mdm Jo talk cock.

Get result.

Meet Lao Da Leftist(name's weiqin) and Da Jie Leftist(name's lydia).

Well we been planning this meal for weeks.

January Leftist birthday gathering.

At Sakae.

Eat eat eat.

then him(name's ash) and her(name's elaine) joined us.

Then a1 Lao Da(name's szeling) joined and left.

Then she(name's audrey) came.

Oh My God.

A year past and she's still a babe as ever.

Can't take my eyes off her.

I'm not afraid to admit  that i tried to woo her  once but she rejected me.

Nevertheless we're still friends.

Then all the non-Leftist left.

The remaining Leftist paid and went to buy pillow.

Then saw a1 Lao Da and a1 Lao Er(name's benson) and him(name's yonglin) and her(name's Audrey).

Then went home.

End of story.

CRAZY IS WHEN A CAT START BARKING.

Well got to say i am very lag.

Now then i got to know that Miss Filipino(name's lydia) of the Jan left-handers clique found herself a Mr Filipino(name's wen jie).

So jealous.

She replace me with someone!i'm so hurt~

Ok, enough of nonsense. Bless her and Mr Filipino with my best wishes.(i'm still jealous though)

Erm thought of continuing my adventure of NYE.

but on second thought i think that its too boring to worth any mentioning.

One bad thing is that we have got nothing to o on that day.

Nothing.

Now i've got nothing to mention  when i mention nothing.

I'm now seriously hoping that result day is not my day.

If it is, it's so gonna be DISASTERRIFIC.

Check Check.

One thing i heard of recently.

People around town thought i was dating her(name's jeann).

How i wish i was.

But i hoped i'm not when a few hundred people start to hunt me down.

Check Check.

NONSENSE IS WHEN A DOG STARTS STRIPPING.

Yesterday was the much -anticipated-by-everyone-day.

New Year's Eve.

Went out at around 1.30p.m.

Bought some thing to dangle on my ear.

Seriously, i think my ear's gonna drop some day.

Well, i tried to wear them.

But resulted in severe loss of blood for an hour.

Then she came(name's jeann).

We meet at mac.

I'm still trying....

Actually i requested for her help.

If not i guessed she still might be sleeping.

She gave up.

I'm still trying....

She bought her meal.

I'm still trying...

She finished her burger halfway through.

I'm still trying...

Then i decided to give up trying all together.

Then i stared at the girl eat.

'Cause my mum says that's a very rude thing to do.

Then all of a sudden the accecery on my ear went in!

Wonderverllous!

Well, i think i need to go for dinner now so i will continue the next episode tomorrow.